Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

I haven't been in the best of mood these few days.

Phine &gh have been telling me not to worry that matter anymore.
Is it wrong ? Am i wrong ? Have i not done enough ? Why, what went wrong?
We planned a Christmas outing/outing tgt for this year but now ?
I have said before that i will make time for u after ur O's &prom.
But now ?
Do i have to act as though nothing happened ?

Again, not to gain sympathy.
You're a loss, i can't replace.
Big sigh.

Work is stressful, well as least, to me.
I also wont be working in clarke quay there already.

Family is like shyt.
:/
Arghhhhhhhhhhhs~

&dear ?
We have not been real happy ever since 2year anni ?
Guess we both have been impatient towards each other ? ):

irritated.