Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Tuesday, 22/01/08.
CCA after school. nothing much, didn't think of stepping down this year leh ;x
have to learn new song ;x
met dear after that. sorry eunice, i will try to wait for the bus with u next time. ;x

Wednesday. 23/01/08.
Chemistry tuition in sch. went alone without yujia, huiqi, waner &all those.
met jyelin at point after that. didn't get to meet dear, he had to do overtime.
mom was home early & her resignation letter was 'approved' today. die la.

Thursday. 24/01/08.
Dears olvl results day.(:
Went to the hall with yujia to give him my support &not to give him pressure (:
Stayed at the PA system there to get a clearer view :x (short people what :x
He was super nervous.
His results turned out alright though he could have done much better. :x
better don't fall sick during important exams next time.
The hall was seemed to have a sea of emotion people.
motivates people alot, upon seeing those.
BC after that.

Friday.25/01/08.
First time being late for sch for this month.
Was like 1min late & the school gate was already closed :x
Decided to find dear as he was having off day &accompanied him till around 10.
He stole my storybook :x lol.
After school, had social studies &went to plaza sing to catch a movie, cloverfield.
It was something like a monster invading movie.
The movie is like a video ==
Had make me headache & felt like vomiting, during the movie. ok, maybe it had something to do with the fries too :x
But the scenes were like really messy.
A very lousy movie indeed. no wonder the cinema was so empty. :x
less than 1popcorn out of 5. lol.
Felt better after the movie. i swear I'm never going to watch such mind twirling movies ever again.
So sorry dear, if i had spoilt the mood or wasted the money.(even though u said nothing abt it or don't really mind.
Dear the hungry monster ate again & this time, its his dinner & we saw huiqi at the kopidiam with her family.lol, again :x
&chengliang(kor?or maybe not..) on our way to the mrt. Didn't recognised him at first..
Seeing him really made me think abt during my sec1 &2life.
What if i didn't know eunice ?
What if i haven't met dear ? would i still be like last ?
This is made possible as the excuse was i was having cca :x
exams next week ah !! die.
Thanks for the the care during the movie & for coming out with me (:
sorry yujia &friends, for not accompanying.

Saturday. 26/01/08.
Studied for the first half of the day &dear came over after over around 2-3 &accompanied me till around 8 (:
Ate lunch & dinner together @the kopidiam. :D

Sunday. 27/01/08.
Stayed at home for whole day, studied. Did physics :DD
Dear came over for a short while, really short while after his shopping &arcading :x
& I'm glad he came (:
tomorrow is PE day. (: donnoe why, seem to look forward to Monday's pe lesson. lol ?

Dear.
Work harder in the future ok ? (: jiayous.
You can do much much better, i believe.
Take it as a lesson learnt.
Never are u a failure, remember that.
Nevertheless, I'm still proud of you (:
i love you.

I scored 18/20 for the last maths test.
thanks to 1mistake. zz
Sigh, why do such people exist ?
There's endless hatred in her*, grudges that she refuses to let go.
I have tried already, treating her* like how i did in the past.
But ? she* didn't even changed at all, in fact she sort of became worst ?
jyelin, yujia. we don't talk much over the phone already..

eunice, thanks for dropping an sms to make sure I'm alright(:
Lets end this long post with somebody's baby photo ;D Cute ? lol this is dear (: i love his hands part. laughs *

I love the way you call me dar/silly.

i love the way you hold my hands,
i love the way you hug me tight, as though u will never let go no matter what.
i love the way you cheer me up,
i love the way u explain things,
i love the way you laugh.
i love the piggyback you gave,
i love the way you ask if I'm alright.
i love you the way you are now.
Can things not change ?
The time i couldn't care much already are those when i give up caring.