Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Wrote my poa notes as usual as i worry that i might for get the formats next year. :x
& just completed my maths homework.
Had headaches & giddy spells the whole day. & gastric is acting up again. ):
Met dear for awhile today. Quarrelled over one person.
Make him very angry i guess ? ): =/ hais. & maybe u should regret all that u have said to me.
I'm sorry. hais. I'm still treating the person the same way. I'm not that close to him as wad u imagine.
Its impossible between me & him, really.
For i only love u. oh well..

Beatrice. ex-Best friend.
Unsure if u will ever get to read this but I'm still going to write it here anyway. (:
After we left primary school, we haven't been in close contact.
But even so, without fail, i will receive a Christmas card from u yearly. (:
Thanks alot, really appreciate it alot. Received one from u today. :D