Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Woke up late today, 12. chatted with dear last night, 1.30-2. didnt sleep to 3.
tear-ed to sleep for donnoe wtf reason. that feeling is really very horrible. );
had maths tuition at 4 till 6. met dear at 6.30 after dinner. well, we didn't talk much.
it's his interest playing lan. & you may ask, but why is it that im objecting quite strongly towards it ?
He's like living in his own world.
ask myself again & again, is it worth it ? i dont wish this to happen..
who am i to bother abt wad's he doing. lol, just his gf. how naive of me to think that he won't play becos of wadever that's happening now. that's dumb, stupid, naive & being beyond cure of me.
you are too exhausted to carry on alrdy ?
there's no perfect relationship but well ? im/should be glad being in this r/s.
这感觉已经不对.
no doubt i love you but
maybe being unable to accept that,
我不配.