Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

meet yujia to go to work tgt. i was early! (: she wasnt late, she was on time (:
both drank bubble tea. clocked in. cut watermelons (: look at wad we did.
we were laughing like crazy. super funny.
yujia laugh at the way i was surprised when i saw that half-cut watermelon. hah.

amount of watermelon we have to cut& many more.
Done by yujia& me. JYE : jyelin, yujia, eva(:

:D i did this! (: with the help of laoer for the eyes. showed the chief, he laughed tgt with us.

but feeling happy didnt last for long. received a msg from my sis regarding her psle results.
she got 221 as her psle score.
i know i should feel happy for her.. but i just couldnt.. its not abt jealousy or wad, i just cant believe she got higher then me(although i know mine isnt that high.) ): sigh. feeling so lousy can.
to make things worst, quarelled with dear ? hais. even going out also have to talk until like that.(the both of us.)
he seems lazy to go out ? ok, wadever.
suppose to go changi T3 walk. waited for him till 4 at hougang as i pei yujia to meet jyelin at hougang instead of waiting at dg all alone.
reached changi finally but didnt leave the mrt station as i could only spend awhile there. suppose to go straight home. trained to tampines. dear ate his lunch there. said i wanted to buy mac but didnt in the end. that pissed him off again. sigh ?
alighted 1 bus-stop after his. didnt alight the same as his becos i normally alight at the other one. then he mia. hais.
even before this, ytd things havent even been cleared. ): hais.
oh well. wad a bad day.
mapled abit shortly later.

haishaishais.
whats wrong ? ):
those harsh words.
sorry for everything today, its all my fault.
i only wanted enough time for us befroe i spend one week in korea, regardless of friends of bf.
why does it seems so difficult ?
im at a loss ? ):