Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Happy birthday melissa,
May you grow prettier and prettier each passing day.
Love

History is repeating itself.
I am tired of all these already.
Can the world stop spinning ?
I know, i am irresponsible.
But i am trying to be more responsible.
Crying doesn't solve anything but, do u think i want it that way ?
No, who love to cry ? definitely not me.
Then why are those tears rolling down my face D: ):
Can i be less dependent ?

Fcuk.