Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Happy 25th month anniversary!

Due to me working today, baking with cousins, ur schedule & weather, we didn't do anything much tgt. I'm terribly sorry, <3
Extremely tired too. ):
I have got my pay alrdy &decided to buy the 2dresses i saw online (:
My pay also isn't much -.- Like i say, i also never chiong work -.-
Find no point eh. Nlvl's results will be released soon, on the 10th i guess. ):
I have no courage to take/see the result :/
How i wished someone was here.

I kept thinking abt that.
Have i not done enough ?
Why cant we talk everything over ?
Was i not there for u when u are moody or angry?
Did i do something wrong ?
I am just a fone call away....
Did i &phine make u remember about the past ?
I understand how u are feeling, seriously- even if u don't believe me. I have seen alot..
I hated seeing u cry, i miss u using my shoulders when u need one.
&lend u my listening ears. You know, i am never tired of these f/s because i think it's worth it in the end, especially seeing ur smile.
I am very serious about this.
I know u will be reading this...Are you ?