Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Woke up earlier just to buy breakfast for myself &was hoping to help others buy breakfast.
I guess it was a waste of my breath, time &effort.
So much for wanting to help eh.
Treat people the way you want them to treat you ?
Rubbishhhhhhhhhhhhh i believe.

Spent my time reading in the afternoon &using the com.
Left hse @ 3 to accompany dear after school.
Ate at a place that has many coffee shops! 5 i think :/
So we chose one & i got to eat my longan ice! My favourite : o
But the ice tasted weird :x oh well :/ Maybe its my fault cos say dear says there's nothing wrong.
Oh, &not forgetting the $1 bubble tea. Omg la, suckxzxz. Regret buying.
Headed to green after to check on the bbq pit for my cousins outing.
Thanks piggggg.

Planning an outing with yujia &phine tmr. Buying prom dress?
May everything goes well :/

I.....i don't feel good D':
Like got so many troubles.
I am glad dear's still here listening. (':

Sometimes i don't know if i shld contact my friends...
I will ask repeatedly if it will be alright?
I know its unhealthy to always be with dear only.
I also know its unfair to say all these.
Just feel i don't belong.
Is it me ?
Tell me what's wrong.