Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Alone at home now, breakfast was my last meal, nlvls is in 3days.
feeling unprepared, irritated &insecure
Wished that things wouldnt happen the way it has. :/
School is already ending & we all aint certain that we will all be back, in the same class or even the same school.
Just couldnt comprehend why couldnt humans cherish before its gone. :/
Even if moments could be re-lived, im certain they wont try to avoid this, am i right ?

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Sometimes, i feel that i have a problem relating to people. :/
It doesnt feel good. ): Makes me so self conscious.
I just dont know how to explain it. Hais.

E, are we drifting apart ?

Dearr, i wished u were here.
you will understand right ? )':