Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Honestly, i do miss camp. D:

Feel left out at times, but will does it matter ?
I'm just that insignificant, compared to the rest.
I really don't know how to express this horrible feeling.
Trying not to think about it, not to be bothered about it.
Frustrated at times, there's this yearning to start a conversation but i will think twice before i act, talk or do things.
Feels really restricted. D: sighs.
Everything 'they' walk past, appear in front of me, i really will think about the times we had together, although with numerous disagreements &arguments, i guess we were the happiest back then. D:
&after that, came along 'them'. we were rather closely knitted then, for at least a year i guess ?
But now ? every one's busy with their own stuffs. Well, i admit, not only them but me too.
Not much time spent together. Even if there was, it wasn't the same anymore. Having conversations among themselves &we are just like gas particles.
Where silence fills.
Funny isn't it ? At some point of life, you feel contented. But there are also times when u feel so unhappy.
Guess this is the ups &downs of life, just like a graph.

i want the song by Alicia keys- Like You'll Never See Me Again.