Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Its chu xi today &chinese new year tml.
Many things happened & im not really in the mood for the celebrations.
Hopefully yml will be a better one though.
Quarrelled with dad, not doing so well @home. Ca1 result's are very well done. ):
Disappointed i guess. Better study harder already
&eunice is far far away, @ shanghai till sunday ): miss her can. ):
There was lessons as normal & concert after recess.
Skipped concert with jyelin &friends. Met up with dear & went to compass point.
We were alright but that didnt last for long :/
Saw my cousin there & dear was uncomfortable becos of wad i did ;x im sorry.
Mood was well after that though. was accompanied home. :/
Dear just went off like that, upon reaching. ):
Broke down & cried @ the stairs when he was gone. feeling very dumb. haaais.
Went home only to get nagged at by my mother. feeling very very down already :/
slept awhile & got nagged at again before leaving for my popo's hse for lunch &ah ma's hse for dinner.

Really no mood. :/
Regretted not holding on to ur hands.
im sorry.
Maybe its too much to ask from you.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE.