Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain

Im so irritated by my mom's naggings. ):
Well, went out today after my chem tuition.
Tuition was alright though. Rather interesting.
acidic oxides are female as its normally non-metals, basic oxides are males as its normally metals.
amphoteric oxides are homosexual :x male & female.
natural oxides only love themself.
Figured this out to make myself rmb them more clearly. (: sounds dumb right ?
Went to suntec & marina square. Bought a pair of pants & shoes today.
Hopefully i wont regret buying them ? lol. im afraid of regretting. =/
Quarrelled with mom on the way home. zz Reached home @ 5 ? took a nap & got nagged at to wake up.
She keep saying i dont study hard enough, never show her effort or wadever. zz. same old rubbish story.
Was very very fraustrated with myself.. ):
Studied till 8.30 at the end.

Dear.

Sorry i couldnt accompany u for the awards thing this morning.

nevertheless, im happy for u (: i will do my best too.

Am i being paranoid ? ):

Kept thinking u were either lanning or psping the whole day.

I hate this of me. ):

im so sorry that i assumed today.

i love you very much.